As I sit in my office surrounded by chaos, boxes of books and trinkets to go to kids during my Ag in a Bag classes, piles of papers to file, the washing machine spinning and the TV playing the newest rerun episode of Chopped and kids running in and out asking for snacks, I find myself sitting on Facebook.
Now I have to say that most of the time I just like reading what other people post, most of it updates about kids or plans for the evening, but occasionally there is something worth reposting. Yesterday my cousin posted a video about a father and a son that was perhaps the most inspirational thing I had seen in a long time. It made me sit back, cry and ask myself to dig deep and reflect on all that we have in our life. I thought to myself, "Am I in a position to do this with my kids?". Then I found myself asking.... is this thing that I do or that thing that I do selfish or selfless and is it possible to be both.
I love being able to work outside the home, travel and do things that not everyone is able to do- selfish. I love being with my kids, giving my time to others and organizations that are in need- selfless. I also find it a bit selfish as it does provide some self gratification. I hate doing laundry, clean and do dishes, but they have to get done. I love to cook, read and sew, but they happen very rarely. I struggle to keep a balance and keep things in perspective and know that if I lean too far one way or another that I am not doing anyone any good. So I then have to ask... what is the next step and where does one go from here....
Video Interview: Dick and Rick Hoyt